When you are deprived of laughing, and you finally get to again, its the best feeling in the world. Someone very special to me was the person who could make me laugh no matter what. Now I don't have her anymore, so its hard to find things that make me happy. When I do laugh, I think of her and laugh harder, rembering our inside jokes and her contagious laugh. When I laugh I let my guard down, so I usually cry, because nothing is better than feeling alive when you are living somewhere you don't want to be.